Submissive Side

This page will probably be one of the most difficult pages I have written. Not because the subject on its own is difficult. Heck I wrote more difficult things. But here I am viewing things from my submissive side, meaning i will also have to get into submissive headspace. Since i feel more vulnerable in stat state of mind, writing about it is harder.

As you might have guessed from the title of the page, I am going to talk about diapers, and my strong feelings for them. One of the difficulties is that things might become to graphical, even without pictures, or ‘stories’ therefore i will split this page in 2. The first part will be more about the psychology behind this fetish, while the second part might be more about what i like and dislike (once i finish that part).

I know i have been attracted to diapers from an early age. The youngest recollection I have is when i was about 7 or 8, when i found some diapers at my grandparents house, kept there for younger cousins. I took one, and put it on to bed, as good as i could (they did not fit anymore). When i was about 12, I finally got my own bank account without parental supervision. I withdrew money to buy 2 boxes of the largest diapers i could find at the supermarket. A few months later, when I was 13, i got discovered by my parents. The send me to a shrink for this, wanting it to stop. I got so scared that i shut down. I started to pretend my feelings for diapers were gone. Pretend being the keyword here. this whole deal made me believe all alternate sexualities, were considered bad by the majority of people. My dads dislike for homosexual people he displays on a regular basis added to that believe. I kept silent about any sexual activity and likings, even those considered normal. Personally I think the my Avoidant Personality troubles have a base in this event in my life.

For me the diaper fetish is probably stronger then any other form of different sexuality i know. For me, diapers are more then just an item within ageplay or infantilism, they are a fetish of their own. I love the way they look and feel.

Why I like them? I think the main reason is that they give me a feeling of safety. of being taken care of. they take my mind back to the time that i had little to no responsibility, agenda, and other things that seem to continuously mess up your life. In other words, they do make me feel good.

But it is more then only comfort. Diapers also are sexual arousing for me. Luckily, this is not the case with babies and toddles in diapers, But a nice teen or older in diapers will probably play on my hormones. This is even partly true for guys in diapers (for as long as I can mentally place myself in their situation).

Diaper lovers, age players and infantilists

For diaper lovers, the age they are is not important, things are purely about the diapers. Most of them actually prefer to stay adult in any (sexual) situation.

Infantilists want to be treated and behave like babies or toddlers. This can be sexual, but does not per definition has to be. I consider infantilists a sub group if ageplayers.

Part 2

Even though I don’t consider myself a true infantilist, my likings do incorporate a mix of infantilism, ageplay and other BDSM ideas.

Age
I don’t like to pretend that I am a real toddler or baby , but rather be someone older forced back into diapers. Other then people who like age regression, I rather stay an adult in body or mind, or “be” one of my ages with a symbolic meaning (8 and 13 year old)

Restraining
Nothing adds as much to the feeling of being helpless (and therefor being taken care of) as being restrained. these restrains can come from (leather) cuffs ropes and other bdsm equipment. to more items that are supposed to aid your children: baby reigns, car seats, bed restrains are my favorite 3 but with a bit of a creative mind coming up with more should no be too hard.

Clothing:
Onsies, and (footed) pj’s are actually the only babyish clothing I like, but can be missed. I rather wear something a 8 year old (shorts, overalls) or teen would wear, jus as a reminder that i am old enough to know better. Of course novellity-shirts and other little things that hint about my diapered/babyfied state are welcome.

Food
I do like breastfeeding (yay boobies!!) and having to drink from a bottle. being fed can be fun too. I don’t mind eating normal food though.

Toys
Playing with baby toys does not do much for me.

Discipline
Although I don’t like spankings, within those setting they are more hen acceptable. sill don’t like them, bu they can be a good reminder of my status as diapered sub. Corner time or timeout are also accepted. Of course oher punishments can be possible

Sexuality
Although not per definition needed, it is safe to say that at times it will be hard to put on a diaper without some form of relieve, but without doubt, part is also the anxiety of not being able or allowed to touch yourself.

Sissyfication.
Some men like to change gender when hey regress or been put in diapers. Although some aspects don’t sound too bad (soft fabrics, and a skirt giving easy access to your diaper for a caregiver) I rather stay a boy. I think any attempt to change that will be answered with a safeword

Diapers
Kept this to almost the last item on the list. for diapers, I like disposable ones. I never had cloth ones, and i admit i am curious about them. But from what i heard and read, i think in the end I will prefer disposables, as they are easier to handle. Like most diaper lovers i like my diapers thick and bulky. Some like to wear multiple diapers for extra bulkiness, but i have never done that.
As for the real graphical part of his page: yes, I like to use them for what hey are meant to: wetting and messing. Were as wetting is for most people (diaper lovers and caregivers) acceptable, Messing does divide he ranks. I don’t like cleaning up a messy diaper, but to put it simply: messing your diapers gives a whole new dimension on both the humiliation as helplessness idea that is central for my diaper loving.

Other powerful things
that ad o the diaper experience for me, are:

  • Diaper changes are probably he most powerful events
  • Bath times are nice,especially when being cleaned by your caregiver
  • Having to come over and have he condition of your diaper being checked by your caregiver
  • Having a dress code (in home) hat leaves you fairly exposed (eg only diaper and a long shirt, an onsie, ect)
  • Going out in public wearing diapers. this gets easier over time, bu a good caregiver-dom(me) will find ways to keep it interesting (Personally i am not a fan of enforcing other peoples to watch your kink.. but there are ways around that)
  • Feeding liquids and food hat will speed up or otherwise will help filling up the diaper
  • Enema‘s: a great way to control bowel movement, although a word of waring: too much use can cause an addiction to it , and your intestines can become lazy.
  • Pats on he behind, hearing, feeling the diaper.
  • Verbal reminders of he condition the diapered is in.
  • Having to call the care giver mommy, daddy, aunt or uncle

This second part is about the things I like in Diaper play. Other diaper lovers can very well like different things. By all means, I is no per definition a list of what I expect from someone who is my caregiver. i do have some thing i would no allow:

  • For me, care givers can only be women. I can not allow men here. this is absolutely non negotiable. Yes, i tried, and no: you are no different.
  • No excessive pain. I will take a spanking if i am a naughty boy but pain does not get me in to headspace: rather gets me out of it.
  • No involvement of real children, even if non sexual. For example i might look humorous to put a diapered guy in the middle of diapered toddlers, but i like to avoid any possible trouble that way

Responses

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  3. Actually it is not a fetish anymore. It is now a community. It is known as ABDL; Adult Baby Diaper Lovers. And, it is no longer found in the BDSM community. And, also there are anti-discrimination laws passed throughout the United States for those within the community. Since the community grew after 9/11. Because people felt more secure in a diaper and pampered then agents in Homeland Security who are supposed to protect us.

    • Actually, it is still a fetish. Just because there is a growth in the population that shares interest in it does not suddenly declassify it from being so. And, another counter is that it still resides in the BDSM community as a subculture-but there are elements from such that make there way into other interest categories as well. And as far as anti-discrimination laws to protect infantilists? It’s people like you with your convoluted and delusional thinking that reflect badly upon those of us who have our feet settled in reality. Wishful thinking does not make it so…

    • What a complete twit you are. It IS a fetish, regardless the amount of people who jump on board, because it is still a deviation from conventional, procreational sex-it’s a paraphelia.

      Also, it still exists in the BDSM community as either an aside for those not as into it, or as a larger portion for certain individuals. I don’t know how many forums and chat rooms that I have encountered that cover this exact material, and while the ABDL community stands mostly apart as a group from the BDSM community-diapers play a role in many a BDSM players life.

      As far as the discrimination laws and increased usage after 9/11… Where the hell do you get your “facts”? Wishful thinking and filling in the blanks with deluded meanderings-although it works in religion-does not determine the real world.

      • Woooooooow you idiots, it isnt a fetish, for me it isnt a turn on, but a stress reliever, and a comfortable thing to share with my girlfriend, and we actually do need them a lot of the time. in case your ignorance blinds you, BDSM is bondage, putting a nappy around your waist and between your legs last time i checked isnt bondage. so get the facts right before you act the know it all

  4. As I read on and on, I noticed how I could relate to you on ALL levels. You have pretty much the same prefs as me! Thanks for making this, I was really becoming worried I was the only guylike this in the world and that I was messed up.
    ^^ thank you.

  5. I am very glad that i could help, John… Take care, and if you like, feel free to mail or chat

  6. Over the years, I have had the pleasure of making several women’s fantasies come true, by placing them in rubber pants and diapers! It evolved from placing them in overnight restraints, and “forcing them to soil themselves by disallowing them to use the bathroom. Overnight restraints is often used while they are in cages, bed restraints, or the isolation box. It is good to be a DOM!

    • How nice that you do not have an aversion to putting a submissive in a diaper and using other forms of restraint and humiliation.

      It is hard meeting someone like you.

      You must mean a lot to the women that do.

      Love Lily

  7. I would love to change your diaper and spank I will do anything to you and for you my little baby

  8. i like wat you have to say about dipers i also like them and cant find nny one to enjoi this fitish with me do you have anny idears ware i can find one

  9. There might be local bdsm clubs, where this fetish usually get a little more acceptation then in other erotic communities, also, there are quite a few profile-like sites out that are mostly targeting the USA, the UK and Canada. All of those, of course require you to be of ‘legal age’.

  10. Hi Duncanrust!!! I personally have to completely agree with “John’s” comment from Mar. 4, 2008. Your description of ABDL ism is right on the money! Thanks for the reading, Bradley

  11. wish to take care of my love with putting him on diapers. The more strong is my man as a hero, the more joy I feel to break him down with the diaper idea and baby feeding way and the checking time is of the most pleasure to me.

  12. thanks dear duncan for sharing indeed, but the female sub pics were kind of repulsive to me, however the last pic made it up for all ;)

  13. *laughs* well I can understand you prefer male subs. I guess I just appreciate the female body over the male body, no matter if I am talking my sub or my Dom side.

    And yes, I am glad I found the courage and words to put my stories here. As I understood, I helped several people with their feelings about this. Gives me a good feelign :-)

  14. Im a woman in her 50’s. For me, the ultimate gift of submission is to be kept in diapers. I am truely a princess in my husband’s eye and I am usually in my diaper. I only get out of them for the gym or something like that.

    Fortunately, it pleases both of us. I truely love the feeling of total submission to my diapers. I have gotten very used to them and can be in just about any situation yet remain totally stealth to the general public. I know I am supposed to use them and usually, I do. I wear molicares durning the day- when I have to go long periods between changes and abena overnights for sleep.

    • Dear Susan,

      I read with interest about your life with your husband.

      i was once with a man who kept me imprisoned in diapers and it was humiliating and degrading and offered me a security and contentment I have never found anywhere else.

      I would be completely lying if I didn’t say I am so jealous you have a husband that does that to you and you both share it, you are really so lucky.

      Love Lily

      • Thanks Lily, Wearing diapers has its ups and downs. However, I am very happy with all that they bring to me.

        They make me the focal point of his interest- all the time. He is always asking how I feel, how full they are etc. It is a sacrifice, a gift of submission, yes, but also very gratifying to me.

        Ive been in them almost 24/7 going on 3 years now. All the excitement of my first day is still there for him. For me, the pleasure is in knowing that I have made him so very happy, that he knows how much I must love him to continue to be totally committed to my diapered life.

        I do love it when he comes home with a new brand, or wants me to talk to him about hot they feel.

        I get very aroused when I can be kissing while I have to push a #2 out. Afterward, I feel so special to him, and will stay in it for the rest of the evening to please him. He will not take his eyes off of my every move, if he knows I have just placed a big poop in my diaper.

  15. I am very interested in my bf submissive tendensies…he loves when I feed him, I wonder if he’d ever let me diaper him? I will never know. This is new to me, my boy is very cherished by me…I wish he admitted to me what he would like for me to do to him! I am more than willing to do it!

  16. looks fun I like to try, I would make it fun too:) but it looks better in bra and jeans and pink shirt hehe

  17. I can relate to Your diaper feelings almost word for word Duncan and truly enjoyed reading this. I began My diaper fetish at the age of 8 and never was able to let go of My luv affair of wearing and using diapers. 50 years later I am still wearing diapers 24/7 and enjoying them fully. thank You very much for sharring.


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